90 Days Porn Free!

Today is the day that I never thought I would ever get to, well not in the early days at least.  I have been free of porn for 3 months!  I have never been free of porn or masturbation for this long in my life, so this is rather a big milestone for me.

I would like to say that it has all been plain sailing for me, and all I had to do was to stop watching porn and masturbating and everything turned out all fine and dandy.

Oh how I wish.

Temptations And Challenges

There were times I could of caved in and thought fuck it, what the hell, it’s just porn it’s no big deal.  Everyone does it right, everyone watches porn.  I could of so easily taken that route, more so recently with my personal and family circumstances.

As tempting as it was at times to succumb to my base desires, I drew a line in the sand that dictated that this was as far as I was willing to be pushed, and not an inch further.  Do or die, that was and is my attitude.

Very recently I came very close to resorting to porn, my mind became very sexualized, and I could feel myself mentally slipping back into the old ways.  I was very confused as to where these thoughts and urges had come from, I had been keeping myself away from all sexual content for three months.  Then it dawned on me that I had started watching a series on Amazon that had some sexual content in it within the earlier episodes and this had uprooted unconscious desires that had laid dormant over the past few months.

As soon as I realized this, the urges stopped, at least for now.  These pesky little sexual hooks as I call them can really sink a person during recovery if they are not aware.  I have been tempted and I survived more or less in tack.  I knew at some point that this temptation would at some point have to be confronted and dealt with, but I wasn’t ready for this little sneaky assault.

Ready For The Next 90 Days

I can’t live in a bubble pretending that things of a sexual and depraved nature do not occur within this reality, because sadly we are living in an  overly sexualized society and putting my head in the sand pretending that it isn’t so, or shouldn’t be, will not protect me in any shape or form.

I have survived my first real assault, and now it is time to regroup, polish my armor and strengthen my resolve.

I have survived 90 days, and I feel more confident within myself and my energy is rising week by week.  I don’t expect further challenges or obstacles between now and Christmas, but I also will not shy from them either.

I walk the right path, and I know this more than I have known anything before in my life.

Onwards my friends.

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4 comments

  1. Congratulations on the milestone. I hope to see you celebrating many more. Count those little victories as they will add up.

    God bless, and stay encouraged.

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